It's finally 3rd of July!
This marks the official graduation from Basic Military Training! i've learnt much about NS and more importantly more about myself.
I've changed physically and to some small extent mentally. I've become more extroverted i guess, after the much bonding i've had with friends in bunk and through training. Some have been kind to me while some haven't be so tolerant. Well, to each his own i guess... =x
There are kind friends who've managed to put up with my whining/ranting/complaining when the training is too tough for me at times or when i start ranting when i feel something is just unjust or a pure waste of time. There were those who rant with me, those who ignored me, those who barked at me for complaining. Well, i guess there are different cultures and to some ranting together is enjoyable and helps to get the day by. There are those who prefer to suffer in silence and just get through with it alone.
Well, i've been thinking, sometimes its better to just shut the fuck up in my bunk since most of the people think i complain too much. It's been rather hurtful at times since i didn't expect them to feel that way and be there to help me through at times.
There was this one incident that left an impression on me. Since my bunk mates barked at me for complaining too much, i decided to ask one guy if he felt that way. Well, he said personally he felt i did complain a lot and when i probed to ask for instances he gave this : 'when doing IOC, i keep pushing you and then you keep saying i cannot already...'
I was rather taken aback... I mean if you push me to run faster and when i say i can't run any faster but i'm still running. How is that complaining? Aren't i just letting you know that i can't go any faster already?
Another incident, when waking up the following day and then asking my buddy if his legs/body was aching from the previous day's activities and then saying mine ached. After talking to him, to him, that was perceived as complaining. Well, i understand that complaining is a perception. If you feel i'm complaining then i'm complaining though it may not seem so.
As such i got quite irritated with the people there and decided to just shut the fuck up. i mean if communication to you seems like complaining then i'm really astounded...
Again, there was this other incident. At the toilet i told my 2 bunkmates that after this, it's going to be lunch already since it's 11.30am already. His comment was 'sylvester why you sound like you complaining sia...' I mean come on~~~~ Am i really so fucking retarded that i don't know what's complaining?
Is it the culture differences or is it my mind rotting away till i've become desensitized to complaining such that i don't even realize a complaint when i hear one?
Regardless, I've passed out from BMT and won't be interacting with them as much. However this has left a lasting impression on me, i guess i need to re-evaluate how i perceive people to be. Some friends you can talk cock to, some friends you can talk politics to, some friends you can study with, some friends you can live with, some friends you can march with. Probably it's a little fucked up to categorize people that way, but honestly i think everyone does that in their head.
Besides the problem faced from the complaining crap, BMT has been manageable. I wouldn't go so far to say it's fun. I understand the need for it, but i doubt it is of the most importance. I hope i've manged to be true to myself and shown that i have certain leadership capabilities if any. If my prediction is right, i'll make it to SCS (Specialist Cadet School).
During my free time what do i do? Besides messaging my loveable girlfriend who is currently in New Zealand enjoying herself in the cool breeze of winter, i read! I guess being in army my mind has somewhat deteriorated and as such i've decided to read!
I guess that was some inertia to reading and i only stared during the second month of BMT. Within 3weeks+ I've managed to read 2 books.
This marks the official graduation from Basic Military Training! i've learnt much about NS and more importantly more about myself.
I've changed physically and to some small extent mentally. I've become more extroverted i guess, after the much bonding i've had with friends in bunk and through training. Some have been kind to me while some haven't be so tolerant. Well, to each his own i guess... =x
There are kind friends who've managed to put up with my whining/ranting/complaining when the training is too tough for me at times or when i start ranting when i feel something is just unjust or a pure waste of time. There were those who rant with me, those who ignored me, those who barked at me for complaining. Well, i guess there are different cultures and to some ranting together is enjoyable and helps to get the day by. There are those who prefer to suffer in silence and just get through with it alone.
Well, i've been thinking, sometimes its better to just shut the fuck up in my bunk since most of the people think i complain too much. It's been rather hurtful at times since i didn't expect them to feel that way and be there to help me through at times.
There was this one incident that left an impression on me. Since my bunk mates barked at me for complaining too much, i decided to ask one guy if he felt that way. Well, he said personally he felt i did complain a lot and when i probed to ask for instances he gave this : 'when doing IOC, i keep pushing you and then you keep saying i cannot already...'
I was rather taken aback... I mean if you push me to run faster and when i say i can't run any faster but i'm still running. How is that complaining? Aren't i just letting you know that i can't go any faster already?
Another incident, when waking up the following day and then asking my buddy if his legs/body was aching from the previous day's activities and then saying mine ached. After talking to him, to him, that was perceived as complaining. Well, i understand that complaining is a perception. If you feel i'm complaining then i'm complaining though it may not seem so.
As such i got quite irritated with the people there and decided to just shut the fuck up. i mean if communication to you seems like complaining then i'm really astounded...
Again, there was this other incident. At the toilet i told my 2 bunkmates that after this, it's going to be lunch already since it's 11.30am already. His comment was 'sylvester why you sound like you complaining sia...' I mean come on~~~~ Am i really so fucking retarded that i don't know what's complaining?
Is it the culture differences or is it my mind rotting away till i've become desensitized to complaining such that i don't even realize a complaint when i hear one?
Regardless, I've passed out from BMT and won't be interacting with them as much. However this has left a lasting impression on me, i guess i need to re-evaluate how i perceive people to be. Some friends you can talk cock to, some friends you can talk politics to, some friends you can study with, some friends you can live with, some friends you can march with. Probably it's a little fucked up to categorize people that way, but honestly i think everyone does that in their head.
Besides the problem faced from the complaining crap, BMT has been manageable. I wouldn't go so far to say it's fun. I understand the need for it, but i doubt it is of the most importance. I hope i've manged to be true to myself and shown that i have certain leadership capabilities if any. If my prediction is right, i'll make it to SCS (Specialist Cadet School).
During my free time what do i do? Besides messaging my loveable girlfriend who is currently in New Zealand enjoying herself in the cool breeze of winter, i read! I guess being in army my mind has somewhat deteriorated and as such i've decided to read!
I guess that was some inertia to reading and i only stared during the second month of BMT. Within 3weeks+ I've managed to read 2 books.
The solitude of prime numbers - Paolo Giordano
Animal Farm - George Owell
Animal Farm - George Owell
As of now, i'm reading 1984 by George Owell. Next on my list is Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. How far does my list go? I intend to read 100 books by end of NS which means about 4-5 books a month. However given that i don't read previously, i read rather slow... Hitting 80books would be a feat for me!
Time to enjoy my block leave and make the best out of it. To those who enlisted as the 02/11 batch, POP LO~~~
Time to enjoy my block leave and make the best out of it. To those who enlisted as the 02/11 batch, POP LO~~~
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